untethered.
when all that freedom doesn't feel like freedom.
someone asks,
what do you want to do now?
you don't know.
there is no one else's schedule
to consider.
no one waiting for you
to come home.
nothing you have to check
before you decide.
the answer can be
anything.
you still can't give one.
your life used to have
a radius.
you could move within it.
away from them.
back toward them.
the distance made sense
because there was a point
you were moving from.
then they died.
the point disappeared.
the distance didn't mean
anything anymore.
from the outside,
there are fewer limits.
you can make the decision.
you can change your mind.
you can go.
but having nowhere
you have to be
is not the same
as having somewhere
you want to go.
you thought a tether
was the thing
that kept you
from moving too far.
you didn't know
it was also the thing
that told you
how far away you were.
now there is no edge.
no point
you have to return to.
all that room
and you can barely move.
